Thursday, February 2, 2012

Lord move..... or move me.

I listen to Slacker radio throughout the day.  It seems I am more productive with some great background music.  If I am working on an assignment or project, I prefer to listen to classical.  I switch between movie scores and the classical greats.  )You know you listen to a lot of classical music when you start to recognize snippets of songs during commercials!)

However, when I am doing laundry or something else I enjoy listening to the Christian station.  As I was listening today FFH's song entitled "Lord move, or move me" came on.  The song lyrics are below:

Lord move, or move me

I can't find the words to pray
I'm a little down today
Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
I feel like a million miles away
And I don't know what to say
Can you hear me anyway?
What I need is for you to reach out your hand
You have taught me
No matter what you'd understand

Lord move in a way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me.

I've look every where to find 
A simple peace of mind 
I can't find nothing on my own
So I got to leave myself behind

Take up this cross of mine
Give away everything I hold onto
Lord I know the only way is through this
Lord I know I need you to help me do this

Lord move in a way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me.

Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with thee
Cause I am weak but Lord you are so strong
And you know it's been way too long (been way too long)

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move)...


The chorus really struck a chord with me today.  I am such a control freak!  I like to (think) I am in control.  But in reality, this need for control is more frequently my way of getting in His way.  

You ever have those times when you want something and then while you are waiting and praying, it appears, that
everyone else ends up with what you are praying about?  

I remember in high school wanting that "insert label name here" pair of jeans...  Instead I am wearing Joyce Scherer originals (that's my mom).  Its amazing how something I used to be embarrassed about is now one of my most cherished memories...

Later it was the dream job.  Fresh out of college and hoping to conquer the road and no doors seem to open up.  But everyone I know is relocating, starting over, moving on, growing up and out. Then a window opens and I thought "here it is" but it was only temporary.  Multiple let-downs later and I ended up in back in school, which is something I love (most days).

Then it is baby-fever.  Start thinking about a family and then everyone starts procreating.  Everyone's facebook pictures start changing from their own beautiful faces to the faces of their plethora of offspring.  

Then there are the larger, more personal mountains.  The demons that creep into our thoughts and we don't tell anyone about.  Those voices that say you aren't good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, tough enough.... enough.  I may, will, never be enough but He is.

2 Corinthians 12:9 ~ He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

John 16:33 ~ “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace.  In this world you will have trouble.  But take heart!  I have overcome the world.”

2 Corinthians 4:8-9 ~ We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 

Ephesians 3:20 ~ Now to him who is able to do immeasurable more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.

Somehow, deeply struck by the FFH lyrics and these verses, I realize that the issue is me, my perspective, and it needs to change.  His plan is bigger then my timing.  His plan has eternal timing in mind.  How grateful I am for that truth.  So today I pray, 'Lord move, or move me' so that I continue to see your hand in all aspects of my life, especially those that make no sense to this mortal mind.

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